I was not like this when I was born or when I was brought up. I, like any other child, inherited the theistic beliefs my family has. But as they say.... “I was born intelligent, Education ruined me”.... Similarly, my experiences and my logics changed me…
I was asked to say “Hari Om” as I get up in the morning. Then in school we had prayer assemblies before the classes used to start and also after the classes got over. I used to celebrate all the functions which had some or the other mythological reason behind it and which always involved lots of family prayer services. Just because each and everyone around me had a habit of remembering god at every instance... like calling out… “Oh lord” or “oh my god” and stuffs like that in every other language this contagiously got into me as a habit… (My mom says this is good, as because of this habit at least I remember god every time.)
Bit by bit, I was graduating in my life... I was leading my spiritual life the way my family and others wanted me to. I used to bow my head in front of every place of worship and in front of any sign of any deity or God. In my quest to have everything around me go normal, I started falling for the Fasting Practices. Fasting Practices are given utmost importance in Hinduism. It is firmly believed that fasts help achieve divine blessings from the God Almighty, or any deity you worship, for fulfillment of your desires.
But something was always going wrong with me and my fasts. At every instance when I used to start fasting for some desperate wish of mine, it happened that, that wish back-fired me terribly. And then there came a time when I totally lost it and my beliefs changed into Question marks.
Now, I do stand with my family in prayers, I do bow my head coz my family asks me to, I do celebrate all functions with all the rituals… But, I do it just because I respect my family and THEIR viewpoint. I do it just because it makes them happy. I personally don’t have any faith left in the existence of any such power. It’s not that I have stopped going to worship places, but I go there for recreation and the atmosphere. It’s peaceful with positive people around.
I believe in only myself and my own thoughts that will make me have whatever I deserve and desire. I am now very logical and idols made of stone or other stuffs cannot lure me to trust them. For me, everything happening around is because of some reason or logic behind it.
I don’t disrespect others beliefs & practices and I prefer that nobody should impose them on me and force me to accept them as truth. I firmly follow the “live and let live” rule and would appreciate if people give me my own space as far as this thing is concerned.
I might be an atheist (as people like to call me), but I am definatly not a theist. I am an Agnostic and I don’t mind being one.
I was asked to say “Hari Om” as I get up in the morning. Then in school we had prayer assemblies before the classes used to start and also after the classes got over. I used to celebrate all the functions which had some or the other mythological reason behind it and which always involved lots of family prayer services. Just because each and everyone around me had a habit of remembering god at every instance... like calling out… “Oh lord” or “oh my god” and stuffs like that in every other language this contagiously got into me as a habit… (My mom says this is good, as because of this habit at least I remember god every time.)
Bit by bit, I was graduating in my life... I was leading my spiritual life the way my family and others wanted me to. I used to bow my head in front of every place of worship and in front of any sign of any deity or God. In my quest to have everything around me go normal, I started falling for the Fasting Practices. Fasting Practices are given utmost importance in Hinduism. It is firmly believed that fasts help achieve divine blessings from the God Almighty, or any deity you worship, for fulfillment of your desires.
But something was always going wrong with me and my fasts. At every instance when I used to start fasting for some desperate wish of mine, it happened that, that wish back-fired me terribly. And then there came a time when I totally lost it and my beliefs changed into Question marks.
Now, I do stand with my family in prayers, I do bow my head coz my family asks me to, I do celebrate all functions with all the rituals… But, I do it just because I respect my family and THEIR viewpoint. I do it just because it makes them happy. I personally don’t have any faith left in the existence of any such power. It’s not that I have stopped going to worship places, but I go there for recreation and the atmosphere. It’s peaceful with positive people around.
I believe in only myself and my own thoughts that will make me have whatever I deserve and desire. I am now very logical and idols made of stone or other stuffs cannot lure me to trust them. For me, everything happening around is because of some reason or logic behind it.
I don’t disrespect others beliefs & practices and I prefer that nobody should impose them on me and force me to accept them as truth. I firmly follow the “live and let live” rule and would appreciate if people give me my own space as far as this thing is concerned.
