He is my soulmate by birth..

On September 27th, 1990, after almost 4 n half years of being the first born child of my generation in the entire clan, enjoying all the attention of my family, suddenly I see this tiny pink face in mom's arms and I wonder, this is the most beautiful thing in the world and this is MINE! Wow! BUT, will he now take away all my limelight?

In fact, it turned out to be that emphasis of my life changed and he became the epicenter of my life. His smiles, winks, chubby cheeks, sparkling eyes, were (and are) everything to me that made me feel so proud of the fact that this sweet thing is MY baby brother. At that age of 5, I already started feeling what a motherly emotion is like. Growing up, I was protective and possessive about him. Moreover, he behaved as if I was some kind of a shield for him and I tried to be one as much as I could. I would actually flaunt him in front of my friends, because he was the cutest kid ever. I felt arrogant when I started realizing that the most perfect thing in the world for me, was looking up to me all time.

I never wanted anybody else because he was with me, until puberty hit and then came the world of crushes, infatuations and girl talks. I was getting busy with my girl stuff but he was still looking up to me and hoping I will pay him more attention. And then he also got used to it and I didn’t even realize when he got busy with HIS own stuff. And silently we missed each other.

We all feel we are maturing, our habits change, nature changes, life take many turns, our focus changes blah blah... I felt that too. In getting busy with our own stuff whenever we got time, we would sit on the swing in our balcony for hours late night and catch up with whatever was going on. Such talks were a dose, which was indispensable for both of us.

Life happened and we drifted apart to lead our own paths. But he happens to be my best long-distance relationship ever. Today, even after five and a half years of not being in close proximity, when he sees my face in a photograph, he can tell what is right or wrong about my face when people right in front of me cannot tell. He remembers everything that is my favorite. He knows exactly what goes in my mind at what time. Moreover he is the only one who knows how to make me laugh when I’m crying buckets. I don’t know when that little baby brother of mine became my super hero. I’m thankful to mum n dad to give me this beautiful and mystic relationship, my pride, my baby, my life, my soulmate... MY BROTHER!!

Funny Flip-side of the Petrol Hike…

As Mehengai continues to be a Daiyan, Petrol ki Mehengai proves to be the biggest b*t*h...

Today is the first day after the Petrol Prices Hike News has gone public… Protest, abuses, comments, criticism can be seen everywhere and the best part is I am coming across really humorous cartoon, pictures and statements on FB.

As always said, a coin has two sides similarly there are funny but potential future changes that can be the results of these petrol price hikes…

Let’s see what..

• ·        Change in the Dowry System: From now on greedy dowry mongers would say… “bhaiya humein car-shaar nahi chahiye.. aap toh bus 50,000 liter petrol de dijiyega…” (Brother, we don’t want car, you just give us 50,000 liters of petrol)
• ·        Change in the eve-teasers and stalkers: 2 boys on their bikes, chasing a girl who is also driving some vehicle... “arrey bhaiye toh shayad 2kms se bhi aage ja rahi hai.. iss chhod kissi aisi ko dekhtein hain jo paidal chal rahi ho..” (Dude, looks like she stays farther than 2kms,let stop thinking about her and look for someone who walking or is a pedestrian)
• ·        Change in investment options: instead of people buying gold when they have saying, they will buy cans of petrol.
• ·        Change in bribery: Starting from a Father trying to get his work done from the kids to a common man trying to get his work done thru the government official… the offers will change.. a can of petrol for task done..
• ·        Change in Donations: Vicky donor will now donate petrol.
• ·        Change in the allowances: No more “petrolexpenses” now… only allowance allowed is “cycle-ki-tyre-mein-hawa-bharwao allowance”
• ·        Change in the flamboyancy: Merc, Lexus, BMWs,all out of sight.. now you flaunt, Firefox, Cannondale, Atlast, Hero, BSA,Tobu,
• ·        Change in blessings: For eg: “may god shower upon you his choicest blessings (in the form on petrol)”; “Have a wonderful day and a tank full of never-ending petrol”; Send my wishes across you with half a liter petrol”.... Imagine at birthday parties and wedding receptions people r coming along with cans of petrol in their hand. Bigger the can, closer the relative or maybe he is a freaking rich guy.
• ·        Change in the Wills: “I bequeath 10,000 liters of petrol to my beloved wife and 500 liters of petrol each to my sons.”
• ·        Change in rallies: Crazy car and bike rallies will convert into Dandi Marches.
• ·        Change in the meaning of “Gas Victims”: World will no longer think about Bhopal Gas Tragedy when you will talk about  “gas victim”. It would be the people suffering because of high petrol (Known as “gas” in many countries) prices.

Change is the spice of life... let us see how this spice works when added to the dish of life cooked on this pricey Fuel (pun intended;))

Who says you're not perfect....!!

A song so aptly sung by Selena Gomez...

Probably she knew that all of us, at least once in our lifetime, doubt ourselves....

Recently an incident made me feel like I am the worst human on the planet...

Oxford Dictionary says... Mistake: an action or judgment that is misguided or wrong...

And so I did.... I said something that I shouldn’t have.... I was stuck between 2 ends of trust and if I chose either of it, another will break.... I preferred the one with the closer proximity and tried to bring both the ends together... but... it broke...

I started doubting myself... for something I did in good-faith... I got to hear some words for myself that I never thought can ever apply on me... I was so badly misinterpreted...

The best part was that, the people who mattered to me….. Believed in me....

And the people who compelled me to think that I was so bad n mean... were actually the ones who were trying to camouflage their mistakes with a little step of concern I took to make things right.... those people dint matter to me....

As suggested by a few angels in my life... I started counting my blessings and sought for things that made me happy...

I realized...... I am perfect in my own way... imperfections in me, seen by others don’t matter... those imperfections make me more perfect....

I realized.... certain traits of mine are exclusive... and no one can match that...

I realized.... I am no super-human... that I won’t make mistakes... Mistakes make me more certain of what has to be done in future...

I realized.... people who want to be with me and accept me as I am and guide me thru my bad days.... they don’t need any explanations...

I realized.... sometimes little things that you do... can make lasting impressions in people's life about you... and you would never know that you did that...

I realized.... REALISATIONS ARE IMPORTANT....!!

Spice in Life...!!

My perception towards life changed when I saw “The Secret”. I started reacting on every situation differently.

For me people around me are the best lessons for me. I have been observing them since a really long time and they are the ones who make me realize so many things by just being themselves and not even talking about it.

“The Secret” says… “We are the creators of our universe”… and lately my habitat made me believe; “we are the devastators too. “

We humans are really stupid. We sometimes just cannot digest the fact that our lives are going on smoothly or maybe perfectly. We know that we have certain people and certain things in our lives that are far better than the unfortunate ones but still we want to run behind those things which are out of our control or even impossible to achieve at times.

We chase those things which are really faraway.. we wait for such a time to come that has passed long back.. we cry for such feelings that should not even exist…

In a pursuit of this insatiableness , we forget to value what is actually ours and in turn, we become the destroyers of our universe by thinking more about what is “not” ours than thinking about what we truly possess.

And the biggest thing that surprises me is that, all of us who are running behind the unattainable very well know that IT IS UNTTAINABLE…

Despite of being aware of all the awfulness, we are always defeated by our heart.

We complicate our lives ourselves and then blame the situation and hold other people responsible.

 We unknowingly try and find “spice” in our lives. A Smooth life is just so bland…  :D

Now here, two beliefs compliment each other completely …

First is, there are different types of Gods… “God of creation” and “God of destruction”. And this is perfectly complimented with another belief that says that there is God within us…

Hell yeah… of course... That’s why we are creators and destructors both...

Slutwalk in my Small Town.. A BIG issue..!!

As they say India is under "transparency revolution"...it awakens the feminism in India too...


My beautiful "City of lakes" – Bhopal, is organizing a Slutwalk...A few pro-active bunch of girlies took this initiative... But as always... This is India.. The event got caught in a controversy because of the name itself...


Hypocrites pointed the finger at it for using the term "Slut"... then those helpless activists had to change it to "Besharmi Morcha"... and I personally find it bolder….


It caught my eye on (no points for guessing) Facebook.. Many of friends were joining and confirming an RSVP to that event. I started reading the different posts on its wall. I was really really surprised to learn a few things while browsing it.


 Firstly about its name... I mean, what’s wrong with the word "Slut"... As a matter of fact, I don’t understand why people take it as an abuse or even consider being one as a disgrace. I would better use the work "sex worker" here to address them.
I personally believe that a sex worker is like any other professional. Like engineers and doctors and managers flaunt their expertise, sex workers flaunt theirs. And by the way, what’s the harm in that? In fact they are the ones who can help reducing the rape cases rate by satisfying those perverts (not to forget, those perverts don’t care to spend money, but care to destroy a life, so nobody can help that).


 Secondly, I saw a few guys commenting like... ‘Why do girls were provocative clothes?’
I was amazed to see educated guys (I assume that they are educated because of the fact that they can operate FB) write completely hypocrite things there and making a fool of themselves on a social forum. They were getting so offended if girls were replying back to them in THEIR language…


I do not understand who has set dressing standards or limits for anybody? Why cannot a girl wear what she wishes to? Do we ever rape a man who is bare-chested or is roaming around I shorts…??


Why does any man, when sees a female, with or without skin-show, imagines her in bed with him and then blames the female for it... huh... funny..!!


People blame girls for getting raped coz of their so-called provocative attire, but what about little girls, who haven’t even reached their puberty or are even so young as 4yrs old, get raped….?


The question that comes to society’s mind, after seeing a girls dressed boldly, is “How can she?”... Instead it should be changed to “Why can’t she?”


My personal experiences have been a prey to these frustrated and desperate men too…


Ever been in a crowded place where the entire town is present… even if you mind your dressing, you will hands trying to grab your butts or busts, in that mob… now what is THAT? What do they get out of it?


Don’t you perverts don’t know how to keep you own-self satisfied...?? Can’t you just go ahead and mind your own business? Why do you have to undress a girl in your kinky imaginations and then blame her for everything?


I don’t say that she should quit wearing Indian traditional. She should dress for the occasion and for herself not for others.


This is not a breach of Indian values or traditions... Indian values are not about what clothes to wear… Indian values are about Respect, Truth, Wisdom and Being Human. People who think that wearing salwaar kameez and saree is what you call as Indian values, they are fooling themselves.


I completely support these young girls are doing by standing up to themselves and their rights.
I strongly believe that even the parents and families should support and educate both a boy and a girl for the same.


Go Girls..!! Go fight for yourselves..!!

Life converted me to an agnostic..!

I was not like this when I was born or when I was brought up. I, like any other child, inherited the theistic beliefs my family has. But as they say.... “I was born intelligent, Education ruined me”.... Similarly, my experiences and my logics changed me…

I was asked to say “Hari Om” as I get up in the morning. Then in school we had prayer assemblies before the classes used to start and also after the classes got over. I used to celebrate all the functions which had some or the other mythological reason behind it and which always involved lots of family prayer services. Just because each and everyone around me had a habit of remembering god at every instance... like calling out… “Oh lord” or “oh my god” and stuffs like that in every other language this contagiously got into me as a habit… (My mom says this is good, as because of this habit at least I remember god every time.)

Bit by bit, I was graduating in my life... I was leading my spiritual life the way my family and others wanted me to.  I used to bow my head in front of every place of worship and in front of any sign of any deity or God. In my quest to have everything around me go normal, I started falling for the Fasting Practices. Fasting Practices are given utmost importance in Hinduism. It is firmly believed that fasts help achieve divine blessings from the God Almighty, or any deity you worship, for fulfillment of your desires.

But something was always going wrong with me and my fasts. At every instance when I used to start fasting for some desperate wish of mine, it happened that, that wish back-fired me terribly. And then there came a time when I totally lost it and my beliefs changed into Question marks.

Now, I do stand with my family in prayers, I do bow my head coz my family asks me to, I do celebrate all functions with all the rituals… But, I do it just because I respect my family and THEIR viewpoint. I do it just because it makes them happy. I personally don’t have any faith left in the existence of any such power. It’s not that I have stopped going to worship places, but I go there for recreation and the atmosphere. It’s peaceful with positive people around.

I believe in only myself and my own thoughts that will make me have whatever I deserve and desire. I am now very logical and idols made of stone or other stuffs cannot lure me to trust them. For me, everything happening around is because of some reason or logic behind it.

I don’t disrespect others beliefs & practices and I prefer that nobody should impose them on me and force me to accept them as truth. I firmly follow the “live and let live” rule and would appreciate if people give me my own space as far as this thing is concerned.

I might be an atheist (as people like to call me), but I am definatly not a theist. I am an Agnostic and I don’t mind being one.

Tète-à-tète on Internet..!!

This is a very contemplative and interesting conversation with a very dear and intellectual friend of mine who seemed somewhere confused with what is happening to her or around her… It made me want to share what thoughts came out of me while making her feel comfortable….A lil long chit-chat... but makes you think over... So, here it goes...............

ME: Anyways, Hows Life?

MY FRIEND: life sucks as always !!

ME: oh plz, Why r u saying so?

MY FRIEND: okay, remember u said...

It’s easiest to be happy

ME: yes...

MY FRIEND: how is it?

ME: just concentrate on the things that r good in ur life...

if anything is bothering u... try not to think about it

like yesterday few things were bothering me...

I preferred to think about something that is in a better situation in my life

have people around u that make u laugh n smile

the more u stay away from people... the more u tend to think about things that make u sad

MY FRIEND: But if you escape problem... You can’t find solution to it

ME: a problem and something that is bothering u r 2 different things

there r some things in life that u really cannot change

like... goin back in time...

remember one thing...

listen carefully...

never call a problem... a "problem"... u will never be able to solve it.....

instead...

call it a "situation"... u will be in a better position to tackle it...

got it..?

this makes me wanna write a blog on it...

:P

MY FRIEND: hmm
hw r u most times... cheerful...
keep people around happy...and enjoy everything

ME: u r talking about me?

MY FRIEND: yes

I’ve never been

from long times

ME: I don’t know... I just feel like... I might not get this moment again in life... why waste it...
I won’t disagree that when m alone... m always thinking about stupid things that I can’t change in my life...
but when m with people... I prefer I shud behave like an alter personality and just be a person knows how to enjoy every moment...
listen..
the more I will whine about things around me... the more I will stay quiet and into myslf..... the more I will lose people's interest in me...
they would always think... “why to talk to her, she is always complaining about something or the other"...
people might not want to be with me...
u getting me??
or u r asleep?

MY FRIEND: yes

but we don’t care about people

it doesn’t matter who r around... those who deserve will make an effort

 I like with family people... most of tyms coz...

ME: then what is the thing that is bothering u darling??

MY FRIEND: it’s like being safe

being with family is always best... coz they love u whatever

unconditional

ME: I knowww... but what is bothering you????

MY FRIEND: just I never comprehend that hw people r happy

hw they lead a happy life

I’ve never

ME: u think like that.... see... you r comfortable with the family... coz they love u unconditionally... so whenever u r with them... u r happy.... so obvsly u r leading a happy life...

MY FRIEND: no

ME: then?

MY FRIEND: its minimum necessity

I like being only with them...

ME: so what’s wrong in that?

MY FRIEND: m an escapist

probably...

ME: that’s your nature... don’t use negative terminology for urself...
it’s okay if u like it more with family...

MY FRIEND: not d nature

I don’t know how to be happy that's all

ME: listen... u r trying to be critical... don’t over-analyze ur life... u r in a very good position girl...
u don’t need to push urself in darkness saying that nothing makes u that happy.

don’t over-expect from life... u have a very good life...

I instead... start chilling out...

MY FRIEND: achievements satisfy me

MY FRIEND: achha

r u satisfied with ur life

ME: completely.... no....

I am almost 65%

MY FRIEND: r u satisfied with urself

ME: no... I know I can do better

MY FRIEND: den don’t u feel bad about it

ME: no... I feel good about the 65% than feeling bad about the 35%.... there is more of it to feel good about...
thou I try to raise that percentage...

MY FRIEND: I mean if ur not satisfied with urself

doesn’t make u unsatisfied

ME: there r some things that r out of MY control...

MY FRIEND: like??

ME: I either try in get them in my control... or wait for d rite time...
like.... m not that great in cooking and managing the house.... m trying.... okay... and.... like... I m not able to work right now due to paper work... so... n waiting for the rite time...

MY FRIEND: not like this

r u satisfied what u r now??

ME: in what sense r u saying...?

MY FRIEND: achievements

ME: if u r talking about the past...??

yes I m...

MY FRIEND: ya

ME: whatever I have so called "achieved"... or done in my past... was the best that could have happened to me... if it was good... it couldn’t have been better.... if it was bad, I at least know it was not worst...
and moreover... I cannot change it... instead I can manipulate what’s coming my way...
my present...
and my future

MY FRIEND: hmm... so u r an achiever

ME: see... I was not a topper in class n all that... not at all a sports person... but I don’t regret all that or feel bad about it... I feel good about other things that happened to be at the same time... like... enjoyed my school n clge life to the fullest... having great family n friends...

MY FRIEND: That’s hw exactly d difference comes...

I’ve never been... honestly...

people who get everything they want... or make best out of everything... r d one to

be happy. no matter how low their goals were

coz life is almost same for everyone...

if u make high aims or low... it’s equally struggling

it’s what u do there

ME: no sweets... life is never ever same for any two people in the entire world...

MY FRIEND: “It’s not about the shoes; it’s what you do in them. It’s about being who you’re born to be.” — MJ.
:P

ME: the circumstances... the nature... the background... everything is diffrnt
:D

MY FRIEND: yes... but it gives equal opportunities of happiness and sadness to their levels

ME: yeah... its wht u choose...

MY FRIEND: its abt dealin things

ME: see... its rightly said.... every coin has two sides... similarly.. everything that is coming ur way, comes with two options... its about which one u choose...

MY FRIEND: yaa ..

that what differentiates betwn achvrs n loozers

ME: see... according to me... NO ONE is a looser...

tht person did whtever he felt was right for him at tht moment... atlst he did wht his heart said...

good or bad... it was HIS choice

MY FRIEND: but if he regrets laterr

ME: he has no one to blame...

MY FRIEND: almost all times

he didnt gave his best

ME: maybe tht was how much his capability was...

but yes... one should not give up after tryin his fullest to a point whr he knows tht he wont regret about this later...

MY FRIEND: achha

I’ve got to go now..

 i'll catch u in sumtym..

ME: k
love u baby...

MY FRIEND: tak cre :)

love u tooooooooooo...

Bye :)

Sorry people if this bored u... :P